Night and Day

I've never got so confused in my whole life like i am right now.

I decide and give up a thousand things in the same day.

Sometimes i give time to myself. But my mind keeps working.

i left home about a year ago. When it happened i was scared and excited. When i got back home about a 2 months ago i was glad and lifeless.

In two months too many things passed by my mind. I got crazy sometimes, like i never did.

I thought i lost a lifestyle, i thought i lost friends, i thought i lost a chance to love.

I tried to get everything back, i tried to break up everything that i left behind, i tried to find myself again...but i failed.

I couldn't see my life in front of me... was impossible to understand my house, my family and my old friends again. I'd never felt so weird.

December is coming so "waiting-time" for everyone. Useless month.

U know what's cool? ... the shrink's day. I could move and live in the doctor's place. it'd be funny and unreal.

My life has been unreal enough. So, forget about it. Now i just put a song and listen to very loud. Just tired to figure out what i am supposed to do next.

No more thoughts.

I believe in you. LOVE!

enough...!