Liberdade

Senti uma vez durante um bom tempo....suficiente pra querer voltar,

Me perdi....muitas e muitas vezes naquela hora e agora tambem.

Sinto que devo ficar...

(segundo um amigo, quando vc pensa que ta louco eh o momento mais sobrio da sua vida!)

Guaranteed again!



i'm really really sorry!

It's for me. So, don't ask me anything!

cheers

Poutz!

2010 --- Feb 2

I can barely wait!

"Happiness only real when shared"

This is my wall, this is my friend... My best friend at all!

I lost the most important thing that i've ever had in my life last saturday, my dog!
First time i saw the pain of death touching my eyes, my soul deeply.
And i say, i cryed as i never did. I felt her pain!

The time between life and death is very insane, nobody really knows!

I put off something out when i was holding her last moment here. Was good. was love.

Thanks my dear for showed me this! Love u forever!


inspiration

Aquecimento Weekend

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Portishead - Chase The Tear

Too Young to Love!!!!

TAMBEM ACHO, TIO!

---the big pink--- (cool)

Loving a fish!

Filme bom de ver!!! Try it!

Ireland VS My Mind --- \o/

For the very first time, i woke up relieved being a brazilian. I've been fuckin' unhappy for the last 2 months, but for the last 2 weeks things are changing.
This morning is special.

I had a good nightmare. I was back in Dublin and everything that i was wishing was to get back to Sao Paulo. I was waiting for a Tv program starts, because i was sopposed to talk about something in front of cameras. Yeah, i used to be famous. I remember that i left the studios for a while to buy cigaretts and a girl said: Oi Renan!// I said: Do i know you? // She: yes, i saw you in internet.

Ok, this is bulshits of my jobless mind.

The point is that i didn't feel like staying there, i got nervous with prices and night-lifeless.

Yeah, Dublin is a small city and nothing much to do. I just liked 'cause i was there for a reason with a limited time. I did and was perfectly unforgatable!Even if i just got this poor english.

To live there, NEVER! To get back there, of course, for holidays!!!

I'm heading my life to Sao Paulo. I Love this fuckin mad city. Hard life, but special one. Perhaps I'll live in some country else, surely for a while. Outside you will always be an immigrant. Your country, your home. Mind it!

Ironicly that dream happened today. Exactly one year ago i was putting my feet on the ground of Dublin.

"Life is changing, not you" John Frusciante.

Yeah Dude, u have to change as it changes.

Relieved

So this is goodbye

Joseph Gordon-Levitt

Roteiro, trilha, fotografia, historia e ele. Filme Otimo!!!

Night and Day

I've never got so confused in my whole life like i am right now.

I decide and give up a thousand things in the same day.

Sometimes i give time to myself. But my mind keeps working.

i left home about a year ago. When it happened i was scared and excited. When i got back home about a 2 months ago i was glad and lifeless.

In two months too many things passed by my mind. I got crazy sometimes, like i never did.

I thought i lost a lifestyle, i thought i lost friends, i thought i lost a chance to love.

I tried to get everything back, i tried to break up everything that i left behind, i tried to find myself again...but i failed.

I couldn't see my life in front of me... was impossible to understand my house, my family and my old friends again. I'd never felt so weird.

December is coming so "waiting-time" for everyone. Useless month.

U know what's cool? ... the shrink's day. I could move and live in the doctor's place. it'd be funny and unreal.

My life has been unreal enough. So, forget about it. Now i just put a song and listen to very loud. Just tired to figure out what i am supposed to do next.

No more thoughts.

I believe in you. LOVE!

enough...!

But now I wonder who I was...

I know we're just like old friends
We just can't pretend
That lovers make amends
We are reasons so unreal
We can't help but feel that something has been lost

But please you know you're just like me
Next time I promise we'll be
Perfect
Perfect strangers down the line
Lovers out of time
Memories unwind

So far I still know who you are
But now I wonder who I was...

Angel, you know it's not the end
We'll always be good friends
The letters have been sent on

So please, you always were so free
You'll see, I promise we'll be
Perfect
Perfect strangers when we meet
Strangers on the street
Lovers while we sleep

Perfect
You know this has to be
We always we're so free
We promised that we'd be
Perfect

((caves))

LET YOURSELF GO DEEP ENOUGH!
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60 miles an hour

"I don't know if I told you, but I'm seeking sanctuary
You'll never guess the things that I do
I'll have the devil round for tea
Don't you know that I'm here beside you
Can't you see that I can't relax
When I saw you in my rearview
You could've stopped me in my tracks

I'll be there for you when you want me to
I'll stand by your side like I always do
In the dead of night it'll be alright
'Cos I'll be there for you when you want me to

You can take me to an island, ride across the stormy sea
We can worship pagan idols, there together you and me
Why don't you run over here and rescue me?
You can drive down in your car
Why don't we both take a ride and turn that key
We'll drive at 60 miles an hour

I'll be there for you when you want me to
I'll stand by your side like I always do
In the dead of night it'll be alright
'Cos I'll be there for you when you want me to".

i'm back...... 'cause i got a reason!

"We make the music that divides you
It's handed down as a thing to cry to
And all my wars they treat you kindly
There's nothing more important that i see
There was a time when all was empty
Unorganized a clog a death scene
Things opened up and there's so many
Paths to walk ports of entry
Now that I'm gone
Now that i'm long gone
This minute has come and gone
I never said to do anything but forget me
I can't be lost
I've learned everything form loss
For what's gained there's an inner cost
I won't pay it i never would
We left the seasons back in Long Town
There was a hint of sadness going round
We met the brothers who drove arrows
And shot assumptions wide and narrow
I know i mean what i'm forgetting
We give for everything we're getting
A lot that hasn't been put away
It's building up for that fateful someday
Now that i'm gone
Now that i'm long gone
This minute has come and gone
I never said to do anything but forget me
When it seems i'm around
Check again what's up and what's down
Any silences make a sound
before the equation i'm the answer"

John Frusciante

Time's UP!

Yeah, almost a year's gone!!!

I'm just glad about everything that i've done. Ireland is incredible!
And trust me! it's more difficult to get back than to come here! I feel like "Why everything is running out?"

But, maybe now it's gonna be the best part of my trip. Traveling around too many countries by myself. And by train!
...a month finding too many things out!



Ok, let's get started...

Howth...Ireland!

Kopparberg + pao de alho + GuitarHero

Ok, a gente preferiu ficar bebado com essa breja q eh mto boa....mto mesmo!!!



Fazendo uma turne pelo Japao by Guitar Hero.... Foda esse jogo!


Com o paozinho de alho!!!! heheh

Jantar a luz de favela!!!!!

Ok, agora no bom e velho portugues.

Juntar uns amigos num sabado a noite, em Dublin, apos 9 meses longe do Brasil para fazer um PF, como se fosse uma coisa finissima e rara, ... nao tem preco.

TEM SIM!!! E MUITO CARO

Panela de pressao: nao tem na irlanda. A mae de um aigo trouxe do Brasil (dificil)
Arroz: ok, tem e eh barato.
Bife: Tem no supermercado, mas eh tipo 2 bifes por 15 euros.
Alface e tomate: mirrados e feios, mas ok.
Farofa: Oq eh isso?
Feijao: Soh enlatado, branco com molho doce. Tem q comprar importado! (carissimo)

Ok, isso nunca foi um desejo no brasil. Mas aqui a comida eh tao ruim q isso passou a ser um puta jantar fino.

Enjoy Us!!!!

Knackers

(irish lads...)

Jesus....it's mad, isn't it???

Should be not allowed

All Pints: €3
Shot Tequila: €2

I've never been in some cheap place like that...

Unbelievable!!!!

That's why i'm here now... bleedin' hangover in my bedroom!!!

Wishing a 3,50 burguer king meal falling from the sky!! That's because i have no legs to move me out.

CHEERS HEINEKEN!!!

A pic about 12 hours ago

I went out just to have some wine and read a newspaper... Everthing's changed!
That's fine!

Happy Hangover's day (Minha flatmate loira, alta, polonesa e little junkie disse isso quando a encontrei na cozinha nessa manha. Imagina minha cara? ok, nao tente)

U2 - Dublin 2009

Amazing...

Perfect atmosphere!!!

And this last song is Wonderful.

"Moment of surrender"

Croke Park Stadium

Just going to the same place where The Bloody Sunday happened.
Watch them singing this song... should be nice, uh??


U2 360

U2 360

U2 360

Pais Tropical

Eh impressionante!!!! Toda vez q ando pelas ruas de Dublin, tem algum irlandes loko com um violao na mao, cantando o Hino da Irlanda.

(Ireland)


Ja comparamos aqui com o nosso querido classico brasileiro, Pais tropical abencoado por Deus...

E isso aconteceu em todas as cidades do UK que ja fui.



(Scotland)


(London) hahahaha....hino no metro!


E sempre vao ter muitos bebados assistindo e cantando. Eu ja fui um deles, mas soh assistindo, ok?


O sotaque desse eh o melhor...heheh


Aniversario???? Vamos pra rua cantar tb!!!
(Galway)


(Liverpool)



A original realmente eh boa... Mas as vezes...preguica!!!

Galway Lad

I was on craic there!!!

Tasty city...sweet on my tongue --- u got it?
hehe

Wine???

Yeah....ten days followed working. I deserve some alcohol, don't u think?

Even if i'm working tomorrow again. I can't wait for thursday, my day off.

Ok, let me go to SPAR and take a wine before 22h.

I don't care about working tomorrow morning!!!

FOOCK UP!!!



CARA DE: ONDE EU VOU PARAR!!!???

I got money again!

Yeah!!!
Last week i felt like the very first time... desperate!
I barely had money for the bus to work!
I ate beans with onions for the dinner. Yes, just beans and onions!!!!

Oh honey, independence life is not easy!!!!!

Renan, save your money now!!!!

Summer 2009

...the best thing you can do in europe!!

Take a rest in some park!!!

New Flat...

I got a new home!

After a week homeless.

A New life is coming...



Now in temple bar!!!!

Good Bye Michael

You're gone...and i'm still homeless!!!!

ME AND A BEATLE FRIEND

Fuckin city!!!


I will be back there, for sure!!!

MAD BASTARD!!!

After Liverpool - All You Need is... some bed!!!

"What's Liverpool means to you?"

The Cavern - Liverpool - UK


HERE I GO!!!

;-)

PS - ...I'll be there for my Dad as well.

Shake It!!!

The Weather and Myself

Sometimes i feel like Dublin. Bipolar!

Neverland

I already got him!!!

Thanks a million Plinio!!!

Play some song!!!

It's Sunday!!!

Winter is back

Ok, we had 1 week OF summer, around 24 degrees and sunny!

Since yesterday, it's been turning fucking cold man. I was freezing on the streets.

Ok Ireland, I got it. You're cold!!!!

The vocal People

Irish Stuff

Sunny Hot Days

Stephen's Green Park - Dublin

LOST

Primeira temporada ja foi!!!

Parabens!!! Muito foda!!!

Let's get second season...

Here i go again

VOLTEI A FUMAR!!!


OR THE CIGARRETE GET ME BACK???

AND I'M NOT FELLING A LOSER, I'M JUST FEELING BETTER AGAIN!!!

FUCK OFF... I'M SMOKING!!!

My fault

I quit smoking yesterday.

I've returned to work today.

I got bad (maybe good) news today.

Life is a suprise box!!!

One, two, three, four...

I've been drinking this beer...
I've got this train...

Enjoying and listening people talking like this accent...
Cute guys!!! But i know how crazy they are... hehe.

Everything makes sense

PHOENIX PARK - DUBLIN



Pics by Plinio

it seems so nice!!!

Boa Brasil!!!

Off!!!

"Renan, you can't be off 4 days followed"

"No Renan, are you crazy??? The Hotel in may is fuckin busy"

Now, I got 6 days off followed. My lesbian boss is crazy!!! Believe It!!

I could be far from Dublin.


Can you imagine me keeping this room tidy???
So do I!!!!

It's not too bad!!!

Belfast... so fast!!!

I've been there, and i really enjoyed this sweet old modern city!

UK is UK!

It's good because is just 2 hours far from Dublin. And i'll be back there, for sure. I got a reason, too many reasons and one of them, ok. Forget about it!!! Oh fuck!!!

I'll keep on looking for you, Belfast!!!

My life got a new way now. Not because someone or some city. I just feel myself better! Now i can do anything for me.

"We can go anywhere... Miami(no), New Orleans(no), Belfast(yeah!) and than back home(dublin)".

Now i know how to be angry and express myself like this!!! Uhuuu!

Belfast... I dunno, but i should be sure.

"We are made of stars!!!"

Lov is not enough!!!
Life it's all that we need!!!

Hey... heyyy

HEYYYY

Trouble

Little bit of Brazil!!!

Yes, inside of this place, it was hot, humidity and made me feel angry... So, i really hate summer!!!!


"Botanic Garden - Dublin - Ireland"


Anyway, made me feel like in home, and did me well!!!

1 razao para um Itajaiacuense estar la!

"Rua de Santa Catarina - Porto, Portugal"

- Sua vida anda meio tediosa, sem saber oq fazer, sem ter onde ir ou ate mesmo decepcionado com as coisas da vida?

VA PARA PORTO!!!!

Com certeza, sua vida tera um UP infalivel... Acho eu!!!

PS - E ainda um "Renan" acompanhara toda sua viagem.

Oportunidade como essa, soh vc tem direito!!!!

Enjoy It!!!

Treinando

Tipo, nado mariposa!!!!



Lisboa e Porto....acho eu, que estarei em breve ai!!!

La roux!!!

Just listening!!!!!

...is this it????

No bom e velho portugues: "Ola" pra mim mesmo!

25 years old.

YEAHHHHHH



FUCK OFF EVERYTHING!!!!
I`M 25.

Faraway...so close

"...Up with the static and the radio
With satelite television
You can go anywhere
Miami, New Orleans, London, Belfast and Berlin..."

"...If I could stay... then the night would give you up
Stay then the day would keep it's trust
Stay with the demons you drowned
Stay with the spirit I found
Stay and the night would be enough..."

Receita de pre - aniversario

... indo no supermercado para comprar carne vermelha(raro aqui, quer dizer, carissimo)
Para preparar um refogado de carne com batatas....

Thanks Mom...!!!!

Fazia 4 dias q nao comia comida....soh sucrilhos e e leite!!!!

I'll be 25

I always thought 25 years old could be the best age of my life!

Is this it?

Whatever, I'm living, so far away... so close to myself!

Now is impossible run away to myself. I like that, I hate that!!!

I feel strong, I feel alone, I feel loser, i feel winner...

I'm finding out - i`m losing out

I love myself...

Selfish? Why not?

I must be like this!!!! And i care about you, so doesn't matter. But wait, first of all, you care about me, ok???

Love you ALL

CRANK

Fuckin amazing movie!!!

A descoberta... too late!!!

3D

EH OQ HA!!!!!

FUI NUM CINEMA 3D -- INCRIVEL!!!!

FORAM OS 5 EUROS MAIS BEM PAGOS DESDE QUE CHEGUEI!!!

QUERO TER UM EM CASA!!!



Exactly like this!!!! It's amazing...

3 days

Just like holidays...

I'd like to...

... LIVE IN QUIDAM....FOREVER!!!

... DO A GOOD MEAL EVERYDAY... BUT I CAN'T

... SPEND LESS AND GET MORE, MONEY... BUT IS IMPOSSIBLE!

... STOP TO GETTING SICK... BUT THE COLD DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE!!

... INVITE MY FRIENDS TO MY BIRTHDAY'S PARTY... BUT EVERYONE IS POOR!!!

... BE REAL EVERYTIME... BUT I DON'T KNOW IF I GOT IT!!!

... THINK JUST GOOD THINGS... BUT THE WORLD IS STILL WORKING!!!

... GO OUT AND GET A NEW LIFE... BUT WHERE CAN I GO??

... SEE THE SUNRISE AND FELL LIKE SEEING THE REAL SUN!!!

... SLEEP AWAY, BUT MY DREAMS IS NOT ENOUGH!!

... CHANGE MY WAY EVERYDAY... BUT I ALWAYS BACK TO BLACK!!!


I WILL TRY A HUNDRED TIMES...
I'LL BE THERE!!! I WISH...



I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!

Sinusitis + Dust + Looking for + Fuck sakeee

I`m fuckin getting nervous...

I don`t know what`s happening with my nose... is like sniff cocain for 3 days followed. But i didn`t it...

Dusting the fuckin rooms in Hotel is a shit! I hate that...

Anyway, i need to find 2 people to get my room, because i want to change my way...
And live in a better neighborhood... I wish!!!

F U C K S A K E!!!!

That`s all!!!

Obs: the first post in english.... I`ll try sometimes. If i make some mistake, please, don`t shame on me.

Sabe como nomeamos uma mosca aqui?

FLY


Poor english. Part 2. Special Edition.

Quidam is comming...

Enjoy it!!!!

Fell in illusions

Live in this way...